quaranthoughts : what gii wants, gii gets – a reflection

What gii wants, gii gets. That was my motto. I was 21 with so much money, young, and living the life I wanted.

When I was still flying, I wasn’t really sticking on a budget as I usually get salaries every 15th and 30th of the month, and I was getting allowances every week – perks of being a Flight Attendant! Wink! To simplify, my problem before was where to put all the money I was receiving.

Back then, I used to eat out a lot with friends or order food online as I had no time to cook for myself given the tight schedule when I was still actively flying. I always order stuff online even if I don’t really need them – shopping became my stress reliever.

I became an online shopping addict – Shoppee, Zalora, Lazada, name it all. I already ordered from them a thing or two .. or three? or more?

I satisfy my cravings everyday – that’s why I hop from different restaurants from time to time – in and out of Cebu.

I always made sure that I was happy inside and out, not thinking about what will happen about the future. I was young, earning big, and was enjoying my hard earned money. I was happily living the moment. At 21, I thought everything will smoothly flow.

Not until one day, I stopped receiving my monthly salary and weekly allowances. The amount of money that I got used to receiving wasn’t reflecting on my bank accounts anymore.

I was slapped by the reality of how I was a great spender back then when I was still earning big. I’d take the cab even if my destination was just two or three blocks away. I’d order food online even if my fridge was full. I’d go to the mall even if I don’t really need to and end up having three or more paper bags from different shops.

I was forced to use my savings, and started converting my dollar earnings to peso just to get through the month. I was forced to start budgeting, and start cooking meals at home.

It was hard at first, but I needed to get used to it or I will go broke forever. I learned so many lessons the hard way, thanks to Covid!

quaranthoughts : lost at 22

I got accepted at my dream airline at the age of 20 and earned my wings at the age of 21. Back then, I was already so proud of myself. I was with my dream airline, and I was living my childhood dream. Everything was perfect. I had the perfect job and income to provide for my family, the perfect life as I was able to fly and travel the world for free, and even the perfect love life as I was also flying with the love of my life.

But COVID 19 came mid of March, and it destroyed my happy bubble. Covid 19 made my world stop. No, COVID MADE THE WORLD STOP. Lockdowns and Restrictions were imposed, and the Aviation Industry was greatly affected leading to flight cancellations, flight disruptions and job cuts for many airport personnels.

July came and I turned 22. I was completely flightless; no flights means no salary. I was completely trying to survive my day to day life by just using my savings.

The year is about to end, my savings is decreasing everyday, and I think I am about to loose my job as my company decided to ask volunteers from our company to apply for voluntary separation — we all know what’s next; involuntary separation and I am really scared for this to happen.

Some may say that I am still young and that there are many opportunities out there but, I really don’t know what to do right now.

At 22, I am frozen and I don’t know how to start from scratch again.

At 22, I am already questioning life, my worth, and my capabilities.

Where do I begin? I don’t know. I am not sure. I am so lost.

#quaranthoughts : please do not tolerate cheating

We all have that one friend or should I say … those friends, who would be very willing to do everything just to save us, who always got our backs no matter what. But sometimes, they do more than what they should do – like tolerating cheating or being okay seeing their friends doing dishonest things towards their partners.

Why do people always team up when cheating is already a part of the situation? Why do people allow it? Why do they support it? I don’t know.

Let’s talk about cheating. For me, any sign of cheating is still cheating. If you think you shouldn’t be doing something yet you still do it, that’s cheating. If you feel the need to delete conversations from the opposite sex, if you needed to install dating applications while being in a relationship, and if you feel the urge to continuously lie in front of your partner just to not get things worse, that’s already cheating. Also, ACTING SINGLE WHILE YOU’RE IN A RELATIONSHIP IS ALREADY A BIG SIGN OF CHEATING. If you wanted to act single, why be in a relationship in the first place?

Trust me, people who cheat already know deep down in them that they are cheating but they do everything to make you feel that you’re just overthinking things.

Now, who’s more to blame? Those who cheat or those who tolerate cheating? No need to discuss this one, because the answer is ALL OF THEM. Enough with the so called bro code/girl code. You know the difference between right and wrong, so man up and do the right thing.

To those who are cheating and to the friends who tolerate cheating,

I bet you guys don’t want to be treated bad, right? So why tolerate such acts? Please, stop hurting people because karma is just around the corner, and it will bite you real bad because people who act okay with acts like cheating and dishonesty deserve what they tolerate.

#quaranthoughts : quarantine breakups

Seven months down into quarantine and still, cases are still rising. We even got into the top 20 countries with the most active cases of Covid 19. Due to this, we’ve lost a lot; and for some, the one thing they lost was the love of their lives because this pandemic indeed tested a lot of relationships and sadly, many didn’t survive.

I’ve heard a lot of break up stories, and the two main reasons that I gathered was they couldn’t take the distance and second reason was because of third party. I guess, the two reasons are quite connected to each other, right? Couples go on an unexpected long distance relationship, and the other one finds a third party who will fill the spot of the person who is being missed because of the distance.

This is too saddening — some people can’t just stand being away from their girlfriends or boyfriends so they find someone who is readily available to entertain them. I am not judging their decisions in life but please, if you can’t carry a long distance relationship, let your partner know so you guys can do something about it. Now, if it’s not really working then better call the relationship off than staying even if you’re already being cozy with someone.

A lot of us enter relationships so easily that’s why when hard times come, it’s always so easy to let go because the foundation is not that solid like a rock. Lack of foundation means lack of everything.

May this quarantine period be a reminder to be with someone who really knows you not just physically and sexually, but emotionally and mentally as well. Someone who won’t let you go just because of the distance. Someone who won’t be cozy with another person just because you’re not physically present. Be with someone who can be loyal to you even if you’re not together. Wink!